i m back to blog...
haha.. was pretty tired past few days coz i only rch home 1+


yest n today r my off days..
i mainly wan to spend my free time with my baby
i feel i really love him more n more now..
and i m willing to be with him whenever i am nt occupied with work..
and yes, for this, i have sacrificed mainly my friends


my daily life routine is revolve around my work, family and son
sometimes i wonder y didnt i spare some time for friens?
its not i dunwan.. in my heart.. i really miss my friends..
i miss my butterfly.. i miss jing.. i miss jun.. i miss my zhuan shu tian shi.. i miss my seasoning gang..
and many more random friends whom have asked me out countless times, but i rejected them and now.. they aso nv contact me le..
i need my friends...
but how come time is forever seems not enuf for me??
or is it i cant manage my time properly?


okok... enuf of my rantings...
i juz suddenly feel quite empty inside me..


in dec last yr, a colleague of mine borrow 500 from me
i lend it to him coz i didnt want to see anything happen to his marriage..
promised to return next week...
and now is like more than 3months???
he NEVER mentioned to return, i msg him countless times..
called him countless times...
and he lied... bullshit all the way
even till now...
really teach me a lesson..
never lend $ to people!!!
i should have known tat he cant be trusted..
well.. i can only say i m stupid ya...


my boy has been rather sticky to me..
now.. he willings to drink milk, eat porridge..
mainly eat n slp well..
i feel happy and thankful tat he is growing up well..
rainbow after the rain indeed =)


as u all noe.. i have employ a maid to take care of my boy..
so mainly my maid feeds him or make him to slp..
but till now.. he still dislikes my maid..
will cry whenever my maid wans to carry him away from me..


for me, i used to have phobia of taking care of him
bcoz the first few months where i am a full time mum to him was a ordeal for me..
but now..
i am trying and learning to handle him for one whole day

attending to his every needs..
i feel i love him and he needs me
i wan to be there for him as much as i can..
so yest was perfectly fine!
i fed him, bath him, pat him to slp
and it all went well..
i feel i have a more motherly feel now, hehe! =)



lewis is turning one in 2+more months..
i cant decide to hold a party for him or to juz celebrate with my family?
anyone have any good ideas?